It truly feels as if we are in a new phase now after the trial. There is a new freedom of expression.
Cliff and I were having morning coffee the other day, when I I asked him when he thought this new freedom of expression had begun for us.. this new sense of play.
He paused for a moment... "the baptism by fire in the Kansas City - in the Upper Room."
I was surprised - I thought he would say it was "after the trial."
But I had to agree with him. It had started with that "upper room" - that feeling of submission, letting go - and experiencing something new.
Then we laughed as we recalled the experience.... It always brings a smile to our faces.
But we still don't have a complete understanding of it.
Then why was it powerful?
We wonder if there is something about a public declaration that doesn't change anything in the moment - but determines a change of course.
Like getting married - we commit to each other and then learn what that means.
Like a conversion experience - we choose Jesus and then learn what that means.
Like forgiveness - we choose to forgive and then learn what that means.
Like graduating from a course - we choose to master a subject and then learn to apply it.
In any case, we are still smiling when we talk about it. It was fun - a different and powerful joy,
And we agreed, we carry that upper room within us - now.
All your life you're yellow. Then one day you brush up against something blue, the barest touch, and voila, the rest of your life you're green. - Tess Callahan