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#3 - Ten Steps

6/5/2023

The Pit of Despair

What is this pit? Why does this pit exist?

We are social beings with a matching set of emotional needs that need to be fulfilled as much as our body needs nourishment. When these needs aren’t met, we fall into the pit of despair.

We are also vulnerable to despair when we have been injured by a social, moral or criminal injustice or experienced a relational betrayal. rejection, discrimination, isolation, slander – when we have experienced any of these we can fall into the pit.

And just like body, if we don’t deal with these wounds immediately, these inner wounds can fester - become infected even cancerous.

We know we are in the pit when we suffer uncontrollable anxiety or panic attacks, unmanageable anger or irritability, inability to concentrate because of a cycling brain, unable to function due to a depression and become susceptible to any addiction - emotional eating, pornography, drugs or gambling. All of which are incapacitating. All of this adds to the horror of being trapped in the pit.

I was familiar with this pit when I suffered a depression as a young mother - it was vey dark - something I vowed I'd never fall into again.

We have an entire medical system that knows what to do when we have been injured physically. We have developed an incredible science about our bodies.

But what about our inner self - the unseen self? What if we have been injured inside?

I remember how our support group of parents of murdered children often openly yearned for hospital beds for people with broken hearts.

But we have no hospital beds for such. The multitudes who suffer from these invisible wounds show up in our prisons, psych wards, locked up in their homes or become walking zombies staggering down our streets.

The organizations that are primed to help like counselling - cost money for their services. The churches which really should be on top of this are often preoccupied with other agendas.

It has been said that time heals all wounds. I don't agree. The wounds remain. Time - the mind, protecting its sanity - covers them with some scar tissue and the pain lessens, but it is never gone. - Rose Kennedy

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#2 -Ten Steps

6/2/2023

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The word is “Stuck”

I think it was almost two decades after Candace had been found murdered that I finally had access to a brilliant psychologist free of charge.

Both Cliff and I had never sought professional help.- actually, the thought had never entered our minds. At the time - we didn’t have the money, the time, the opportunity, nor the inclination. We assumed it was something reserved for the elite or those with serious mental illness.

So, I asked this psychologist, "When should a person experiencing traumatic loss seek help?"

His answer was simple. "When they are stuck."

Stuck?

“Are we stuck? Have we ever been stuck?” I wondered aloud.

Together we went through a short analysis of our lives. Apparently – “No.” – at least not seriously.
I decided right then and there that if we could do it – escape the “stuckness” of trauma - anyone could do it. Perhaps I did have an answer – I concluded. At least I had a life time of experience to draw on.

I remembered this conclusion again while listening to the latest feedback - and again heard that underlying question. “How do you forgive?” Except this time, it was more personalized. - “How did you do it?”

So now the challenge is for me to remember my own story and make sense of the path of forgiveness I had taken back then and was still taking - and the courage to tell it.

The truth is that I did fall to the bottom of that black pit of hopelessness - the trauma of unforgiveness, Except for me there was a ladder that lead upward to the blue sky of freedom.

My goal now is to remember, isolate and identify that ten-step process.

“Life is like walking; you take one step at a time.” – Taylor Swift

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#1 - Ten Steps

6/1/2023

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It was at a back-yard book launch. The weather had been perfect; the reading and the Q & A had gone well. We were just about to end the program when a man, sitting in the far corner of the yard asked me, “How do you really forgive? What is the process?”

My inclination was to answer, “I just wrote a book - read it.” But then I took another look at him. It wasn’t an idle question. He was wearing his issues and looked miserable.

In my mind’s eye, I reviewed my book and realized that even though I had written about forgiveness in this book, I had not answered his question.

Actually, I have written about five books on forgiveness and I had tried answering that question in a thousand ways, yet I knew in my hear that I hadn’t really answered it. I had encouraged forgiveness, defended it, defined it, and even critiqued it. I had illustrated it by telling our story of forgiveness over and over again - yet I had not isolated the process succinctly. A process needs steps; What are the steps one needs to take to forgive?

I could feel the man’s pain…. the hopelessness - the reality. Like me, he knew that forgiveness was freedom. Yet he was caught in the bottom of that black pit of hopelessness - the trauma of unforgiveness.

I gave some lame explanation which I knew was inadequate but I vowed then and there again that I would try again. I did. I wrote out an imaginary tower of forgiveness describing it all again. Yet from the feedback on that fun exercise has been even more questions so I know I still have not answered the question.

I must know the answer - I’ve done it a million times. I just have not been able to find the words.

I have not been able to isolate the process.

We might possess every technological resource... but if our language is inadequate, our vision remains formless, our thinking and feeling are still running in the old cycles, our process may be 'revolutionary' but not transformative. - Adrienne Rich

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living desperately

4/18/2023

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It's not even been one year since Cliff died - and I've been doing well. - or so everyone thinks. I think they see how busy I am.

Since Cliff died I've edited his autobiography blogs and published them in a book "Chasing the Light" launched November 27. Then I fantasized in a daily blog form the Forgiveness Tower - 3 months of it - completing it with a Hallelujah moment.

Since Cliff died, I've travelled! I have cruised on the Caribbean Sea, taken in a Broadway show in New York and tomorrow I travel to the Dominican Republic to stay at an all inclusive for a week - with family.

Meanwhile I've continued to work as a therapist at Oakville Wellness Center, teach my 8-week writing course on Zoom, always enjoying connecting with brilliant gifted writers and doing some consulting as well.

I've even managed to teach a 6 -week course "Grieving Well" as part of the Canadian Mennonite University community courses. I have no idea how to grieve "well" but it was fun to explore grieving with others. I think I used them as a support group.

I've even downsized our house and moved into an apartment with a view of the Red River and the city line.

Oh yes - and I continue to have wonderful conversations with amazing friends and family over coffee or cell phone.

Yet I feel ancient and desperate. I miss Cliff terribly -- all the time.

But I am living out Cliff's example - even in the face of death he lived intentionally.

They say it gets easier.

“The few times, however, that we do obey our severe masters and listen carefully to our restless hearts, we may start to sense that in the midst of our sadness there is joy, that in the midst of our fears there is peace, that in the midst of our greediness there is the possibility of compassion and that indeed in the midst of our irking loneliness we can find the beginnings of a quiet solitude.”― Henri J.M. Nouwen

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Done it

4/12/2023

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I think I’ve done it. I think I have finally answered the question.

After Candace's body was found we held a press conference to thank Winnipeg for their wonderful support in the seven-week search. At the end, one of the reporters asked what we would do about the murder. We said we would "forgive."

in hind sight, I know it was more of a knee-jerk reaction to the trauma encounter that we had experienced. It was a wish. When we had felt the trauma presence on our bed that first night - we had said we would forgive and the presence left. It was a miracle word! We weren't about to let it go.

Our forgiveness response was not understood by most - the majority. The others who did understand - seemed to be intrigued. In any case, the questions started to come - and I've been trying to answer them ever since.

Interviews, invitations to speak, visits by the influential, Johann Hari, Malcolm Gladwell, opportunities like the Ted talk etc. etc. I even tried writing books along the way but never felt satisfied. I didn’t even come up with a good definition of what forgiveness was. - even though I was on the hunt.

All I knew was that forgiveness was very complicated - and became more complicated with time rather than less. Apparently the murder of a child with sexual intent is the hardest most difficult to forgive

The discovery of the quadrants was a milestone. It was a way of organizing life into four manageable parts that are simple and easily understood. Discovering the quadrants finally helped me understand the "body trauma" that we had gone through! The body has to forgive as well. Wow - that was a break through for me.

I was also driven by Cliff's dying wish for me to adapt the quadrants, and explore and describe our forgiveness experience in terms of a Forgiveness Centre - an impossible dream - or is it?

I might not be able to build it but I can imagine it. In my new apartment with the distant view of the Canadian Museum of Human Rights - I began to imagine a similar building with access to the unlimited budget of $100 Billion dollars.

To make it truly authentic to my experience, I tried to illustrate the quadrant journey with my own stories which is another exercise of remembering and learning. I started to blog it out - four quadrants, four forgiveness floors!

And now, I’ve just completed the fourth floor. I've done it! I have imagined a Forgiveness Centre that I think reflects the complicated journey needed to find the true freedom in forgiveness.

Let me assure you that I have no no inclination to build this imagined tower of hope - or to even start fundraising for it! It’s an impossible dream.

But I've realized by doing this - that there is a unique power in dreaming. I have built the Centre in my imagination and it lives and even functions there with a strange surreal reality.

I have a new appreciated of the power of the imagination and its ability to heal. When I was describing the last scenes - I was experiencing it as well. I was healing.

In any case - I have done it! I have built it and it was fun. I feel I have completely answered the questions about what it’s like to forgive to the best of my ability.

And thank you all for coming along this journey with me.

Your support, your observations, your responses meant more to me than you will ever know.

I thought there might be more criticism of my crazy way of thinking - my crazy theology - my crazy stories and my crazy first daft mistakes - but you’ve been kind and I just thank you.

I have no idea what I’m going to do now ....

Aim for the sky, but move slowly, enjoying every step along the way. It is all those little steps that make the journey complete. - Chanda Kochhar

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white on white

4/10/2023

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Now that I live in an apartment and use the elevators every day, I wondered about the use of them in the Forgiveness Centre. I had just assumed the Centre would be built around a core of elevators in the middle of the building for the convenience of everyone.

But riding elevators can also be disorienting - always wondering as the doors open - what floor am I on? So then I had another thought - with 100 Billion dollars I can do whatever would be best for the Centre.

Perhaps right next to the Centre, we need a soaring Space Needle - 1000 feet. It would be topped with an amazing two story revolving restaurant with an all-glass floor on the lower level and a floor-to-ceiling glass on the upper level allowing the people to see the prairie in all its glory.

To solve the problem of the non-descript elevators, the Space Needle could be designed to have four skywalks crossing over to the Centre giving the guests access to the specific quadrants by a custom designed walk way. It would make the entrance onto each floor a significant experience. Since the Centre is a very self-absorbed journey inward this could help with that and would give it some objectivity.

Oh yes - and there is also something very healing about the prairies. When I was going through my toughest time attending the court trials in our case - all of a sudden I needed a blank space to rest my eyes on. I even started painting white-on-white in desperation. There’s nothing as blank and as beautiful as the prairie sky with bits of clouds floating softly by. The traumatized mind can relax.

Winnipeg is also known for its short seasonal transition times. We go from snow white to leaves on the trees, from winter to summer, in one or two weeks which is perfect for the traumatized brain that find transitions tough.

As far as I understand, there is research that also shows that staring off into the distant space also helps with the creative process- our minds need to see a distant horizon. That's why studios often have large windows - and there is nothing further than a prairie horizon.

Of course at the very tip of the space needle - right next to the sky - would be this wonderful restaurant called "Taste and See"" that anyone who has attained a graduation certificate for having completed the Forgiveness Centre from top to bottom - would be able to access - free of charge - a gift -a reward for work well done.

For tourists it would be $1000 a plate of the most exquisite food..

Then as inspiration there would be a man-made beautifully designed lake nearby to attract the Canada Goose, Great Blue Herons, Eagles, Swans and Pelicans that would entertain the guests as they fly in the sky past the windows, images of soaring freedom.

And last but not least - there needs to be a spacious state-of-the-art parking lot - underground - so that people can come with their buses, their vehicles, their bikes - whatever they want, to come to the center - no one would be denied a truly beautiful forgiveness experience.

For the travelers who come to visit, there would be four-star hotel right down the road with a shuttle service - and next to that a strip mall complete with a drug store, convenience store and all the other little stores that we need.

There I think I have done it - it is designed.

Now what?

To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.- Lewis B. Smedes

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Spirit Finger of Fourth Floor

4/7/2023

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Now I am ready to design the fourth Spirit floor of the Forgiveness Centre. I am still looking for a mountain. More then ever, I want the Centre to represent a spirit climb and there are no mountains nearby.

Again, I see the rising sun reflecting off of the Canadian Museum for Human Rights. The museum is an elegant mountain climb encased in glass. It is still perfect.

So I'm going to dream again

If I had 100 billion dollars, I’d borrow me some of the design ideas from the Museum and build me a Healing Forgiveness Centre close to the Winnipeg airport on the way to Stony Mountain.

This fourth floor will need at least seven levels because in essence it resembles a towering finger of hope.

The first level will need to be an inspiration to create a will and desire to forgive. One way to inspire others would be to set up a gallery of everyone who has chosen the forgiveness lifestyle, - the heroes of forgiveness - who have lived life fully and spectacularly.

The second level would give opportunity for an outward expression of an inner commitment. Just as one needs the public gesture of a wedding to help one commit to a marriage, we need public gestures to commit our lives to forgiveness. This level would have tunnels. The first tunnel would symbolize baptism. Baptism is a traditional symbol of new birth; we could have a glass tunnel under a water fall for this.  There would be another tunnel of wind - duplicating the feeling of 'going against the wind' reminding us that forgiveness is always counter-intuitive. Then there would be a tunnel between two hot fires, to duplicate the feeling of entering into a 'burning holy presence,' - a refining fire resulting in complete vulnerability - no shoes allowed. There would be a tunnel reminiscent of the old saw dust trail with George Beverly Shea singing 'Just as I am.' Lastly, there would need to be the communion tunnel - replicating the Lord's supper with goblets of wine and the breaking of bread and of course the opportunity to wash each other's feet - we could add a few delicious appetizers because we might need a coffee break about now.

The next level would be a huge art studio where people would be encouraged to create in whatever medium they prefer - from a paint splattering Jackson Pollock to a Rembrandt Portrait and everything in between. This level would be hosted by imaginative, gifted artists, lovingly guiding the insecure creatives to give expression to their precious souls. Everyone would leave with their own masterpiece.

The fourth level would resemble a log cabin in the woods decorated with theology - the story of trees, starting with the Eden Tree of good and chaos and ending with a whole orchard of the Tree of life. Trees are the supreme example of every aspect of forgiveness, from the death on the tree, to the shade of a tree, to the burning bush, to their fruit, to the paper we write on, the houses that we build and the firewood that we burn. There would need to be deer on this cabin level - and I'm not quite sure why. In this ambiance of nature, one would be given the opportunity and guidance to hear God's voice, identifying it and memorializing it by collecting stones, decorating them and building altars and “inukshuks" with them. Here one could choose the name for God that fits your season of life, Abba, Father, Savior, Friend, Lover, God, Higher Power - etc.

The fifth level would give way to a pause of reflection with a giant labyrinth designed to aid in the art of silence and meditation. This level would be hosted by "poet guides" with spiritual giftings. There is nothing more meaningful than a spiritual soul giving another lonely soul, poetic images that connect them with their inner self . In a corner on this level would be a room set apart for 24/7 prayer - a place for the prayer warriors. And then of course we would need a sound proof theatre set aside for those who dance, fall, shiver and shake as they enter into the Spirit of worship music of every kind 24/7.

On the sixth level, we step onto a concrete path studded with blue gems and lined with Spanish alabaster to begin the climb up the glass finger of hope.

But before we begin the climb there would be a pastoral - type guides offering opportunities to write a personalized current 'Lord's Prayer' giving special attention to the words... "Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Save us from the time of trial, and deliver us from evil." There would also be confessional booths for those who need to say the words aloud - to begin the true cleansing process- the emptying of self necessary in a forgiveness process.

Then the walk up this path would be lined with words of unconditional love of the Creator. The words - "Do not be afraid." and "I love you." would be highlighted in music, scripted words and whispers. There might be red rose petals raining down occasionally just to remind the pilgrims climber of the unconditional love of God.

Everyone would end up at the very top - the seventh level - and be treated to a spectacular show of fierce northern lights replicated by the use of strobe lights intermittently piercing the black night. After a spectacular show, the lights would go out and the dark sky would be studded with stars - sparkling brilliantly.

Then the evening air would be filled with the most beautiful choir rendition of Handel's Hallelujah Chorus - capturing waves and waves of triumphant music, unveiling the splendor and devotion of a God who epitomizes forgiveness - who did not abandon us to the dark night of the soul but provided a way to escape into the light of the Spirit.

Then the music and view become so powerful, we can't help but spontaneously stand in ovation for what God has done for us by giving us the opportunity to experience forgiveness and all that it promises.  We are filled with waves and waves of reassurances that even though suffering, failure, loneliness, sorrow, discouragement, and death are part of our journey on earth, we can climb the tower of forgiveness over and over again, and experience pure joy and delicious freedom at the top in God's presence. Here we can enter into the "awe" of God - a transcendent moment that miraculously transforms our pain into generosity and joy.

We then - in a blink of an eye - are transported down to earth ready to fight another battle with unbridled enthusiasm. Always knowing that when life gets to us - we can always return and climb the tower of hope at the Forgiveness Centre and experience new healing that leaves us with abundant  faith, hope, and love - but mostly love.

I have often said, “I forgive you,” but even as I said these words my heart remained angry or resentful. I still wanted to hear the story that I was right after all; I still wanted to hear apologies and excuses; I still wanted the satisfaction of receiving some praise in return—if only the praise for being so forgiving!  But God’s forgiveness is unconditional; it comes from a heart that does not demand anything of itself, a heart that is completely empty of self-seeking. It is this divine forgiveness that I have to practice in my daily life. It calls me to keep stepping over all my arguments that say forgiveness is unwise, unhealthy, and impractical. It challenges me to step over all my needs for gratitude and compliments. Finally, it demands of me that I step over that wounded part of my heart that feels hurt and wronged and that wants to stay in control and put a few conditions between me and the one whom I am asked to forgive. . . . Only when I remember that I am the Beloved Child can I welcome those who want to return with the same compassion as that with which the Father welcomes me. - Henri Nouwen

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Chimpanzees Forgive

4/6/2023

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I’ll never forget that critical moment.

I was in Qatar at a school conference telling my story and outlining the trauma elements to the students. After one of my classes I had a student come up to me with his three buddies behind him, and ask me the big question, "Do you need a faith to forgive?"

It was a simple question. I could’ve answered, "yes" because I personally require a faith to forgive, but as I looked at them I realized the cultural, religious barriers. During my class, they had been accepting of my trauma stories - I had watched them - I didn't want to burn bridges.

So, I told him that one didn't need a special faith to forgive, anybody could forgive. Research shows that even chimpanzees forgive. We giggled together at the thought of that.... "Sometimes we might need a faith...." I added...and they nodded.

To forgive always takes that second thought and effort, but because we are social beings who value relationship - forgiveness just makes common sense. We make the effort. "Don't sweat the small stuff," we say with a shrug of the shoulders.

But what if it is big - like forgiving the theft of a million dollars? Or like in our case - the murder of our thirteen-year-old daughter? When things are too big for us - we need help.

The 12-Step Program created by Alcoholics Anonymous is a widely used treatment tool to help people deal with their addictions by putting their faith in the Higher Power. In the same way when we are over our heads, consumed with anger, we need a Higher Power

Cliff and I often talked about the peculiar power we experienced when we had come to our wits end and were on our knees begging for help. Our God would help.

God might not answer our prayers for a million dollars, for a stress-free life, for that perfect mate, of for that secret dream wish - however he does help us forgive. It isn’t a quick fix and there’s no prevention that we know - but there is help if we ask. Especially if we ask him to create miracles - and turn something unforgivable into something good.
God cannot resist the pleas of a desperate soul.

But we need to remember forgiveness isn't a right -- it is always a gift exchanged in love.

No one has proof that I know of, that a higher power exists, yet a major portion of the world believes in it and relies on it in faith in trust, in what that is. Where is the science in that? And yet you have incredible belief in that. - Sandra Bullock

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Romance Origins

4/6/2023

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I'm not a theologian, I am woman - and a writer and a therapist. Oh yes - and when I was young, I wanted to be a romance writer. I was very prepared to assess Kansas City and his Song of Songs.

Besides as a little girl attending church every Sunday, this was the book that had amused me and my cousins sitting in the front pews. As we were forced to listen to one dry German sermon after the other - we entertained ourselves by reading...."Your breasts are like two fawns, twins of a gazelle."- it made buying our first bra sacred.

So it was with some amusement Cliff and I drove to a cabin tucked away in the forests of Northern Saskatchewan, where we listened to the 21 -sessions each an hour long - then talked about what we were learning as we walked through the woods together - holding hands. Song of Songs is a love story. Studying it made for the perfect romantic get-a-way - which was not only theologically refreshing but healing for our marriage as well. Ok - I'm going to admit - it was the best week ever.

And - by the end of the week we were enamored with Kansas City as well and fell in love with the "Bridal Paradigm" - a teaching that emphasizes the Church as the Bride of Christ and the Kingdom of God as a place of pure love. Our surprise was how this beautiful theme runs through the entire Bible - and yet is rarely emphasized in our churches.

I can't possibly summarize the theology with the credibility it deserves - but like I said, I am a romantic - and have developed some expertise on that level. (And here I am writing with a smile.)

What if the paradigm is correct and God is a romantic like all of us? Perhaps it is true that after God created the heavens and the planets to spin around the sun, this powerful God wanted to be loved and to experience love on a personal level so he created beautiful human beings in his image and set them up in a perfect garden to commune with them daily? This would also explain the tree because the only problem with the love theme is, that for there to be true loyalty and love, there needs to be boundaries within the relationship. So God needed to set that up too - a simple boundary. "Don't eat the fruit."

And then the love of God's life and the love of Adam's life, Eve betrays their trust by choosing to believe that creepy, low-life, lying serpent and eats the fruit. It wasn't only the act - It was an emotional affair - the worst. She betrayed her first love.

Insulted, dishonored and broken hearted, God reacts like a jilted lover. in fact, as a therapist I have dealt with many who have been betrayed in their relationships. Let me assure you that God's behavior throughout the entire Old Testament is typical of the passive - aggressive behavior of a betrayed spouse. withdrawing - sulking one moment - and then punishing the next. Thank goodness, we have a New Testament in which God is able to resolve his issues - realizing that punishing does not change human behavior or win back their love. So God offers human beings the opportunity to choose again by sending another bridegroom in preparation for a true wedding feast still to come. Rather than sulk - God openly declares his love and offers a redemption plan - that is consistent with his stance of enduring love.

What I like best about the Bridal Paradigm is that it is a theology that heals. It's main message is not of that fierce condemnation we grew up with. It fits with the need to forgive and be forgiven. It emphasizes the need for the golden glue that promises to heal the fragmentation resulting from any betrayal.

Oh yes -- and then to test the validity of Song of Songs again, I held a study on the book in our home - women only - to see if it would be accepted by the Eve in all of us. It was the best ever.

We can't study the biggest love story of all time without falling in love with each other.

Personally, as my struggle reveals, I don’t often “feel” like a beloved child of God. But I know that that is my most primal identity and I know that I must choose it above and beyond my hesitations. Strong emotions, self-rejection, and even self-hatred justifiably toss you about, but you are free to respond as you will. You are not what others, or even you, think about yourself. You are not what you do. You are not what you have. You are a full member of the human family, having been known before you were conceived and molded in your mother’s womb. In times when you feel bad about yourself, try to choose to remain true to the truth of who you really are. Look in the mirror each day and claim your true identity. Act ahead of your feelings and trust that one day your feelings will match your convictions. Choose now and continue to choose this incredible truth. As a spiritual practice claim and reclaim your primal identity as beloved daughter or son of a personal Creator.- Henri Nouwen

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My Biggest Worry

4/5/2023

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As you know I have spectacular children.

But there was a time when I was worried sick about the younger ones. What would the trauma do to them? Cliff and I were having enough trouble navigating our way through it. I couldn't imagine being a child and having to deal with the trauma of murder - and knowing that secondary trauma is even harder to recognize and recover from.

When I asked God about how to deal with them and how to raise them, he gave me a vivid image of a Canadian Mother Goose walking across the busy highway with her brood of little ones. She wasn’t behind them, she wasn’t beside them,- she was in front of them leading the way positively and confidently taking on all the risks.

I realized if I was to save my children, I would have to find my own way through first. No wonder I was so desperate and tried so hard. It wasn’t only for myself, it was also for the children.

I might have overdone it. My daughter says that we had trauma discussions at every dinner table, poor things. But they did it - they got through it with their faith intact and lived out their lives with amazing resilience.

But then I noticed an influence on them that caused me concern. They became enamored with a preacher from Kansas City - taking every opportunity to travel down and participate in his ministry.

I was worried. Their devotion to him made me wonder if he was a cult leader so I researched him and found out that his thesis - of all things - was a study on the Songs of Solomon. in fact, he claimed that the Song of Songs was the most important theological book in the Bible. How weird was that? And he was offering a course on it - 21 sessions - each one hour long

So Cliff and I decided that we would take the course. We rented a tiny cabin in Northern Saskatchewan and listened to it all - intently - for a whole week.

We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another. - Luciano De Crescenzo

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